I Ask Existential Questions...

Well, that's what I've been told by my husband who has to sit through countless lunches with me posing and re-framing key questions about the nature of the relationships and why everyone (including myself) is so freakin' self-absorbed and in "their own world".

On the whole, my response to this is somewhat negative, and I fight hard to not label people's behavior or my own as "selfish" "rude", or "old world". Oh, the battles I have within myself just to accept the fact that I too participate in this kind of thought form and barbaric behavior.

Johnny D. eloquently professes "no man is an island", right?
Well, according to the existentialist, existence is always particular and individual.
I just cannot dispute this way of being because it's really what IS happening all the time even though I rage against being this way myself. It's a terrible bad habit and old skeul...

Intuitively, I KNOW that this kind of behavior is a bunch of bullshit and it's only because and through the egoic self that we live this way. That's what makes people divided and singular, the badass ego!

Yet, I don't denounce the ego and the function it serves me. It's truly an awakener cos it's a vehicle through which I can measure my own growth. You know, how much time did I spend today being obsessed with me, my own little universe, and all the people I call my friends...how much did they respond to what I said or did????
The subconscious self loves to mull this over day and night. on and on and on....

I really don't think it's possible for authentic relationships to form on the egoic level when all worlds royal ME is on display. It's hard to truly give a fuck about another person's world when they too can't look away from their own self even for just a nanosecond to LISTEN or EMPATHIZE with the true reality of the situation.

So what is truth? We've got these things called souls, they are in physical bodies (for now) and we've all got blinders on to the fact that there's a lot more shit going on all around us that's gonna break these spells of delusion pretty soon...

and if you still wanna dance around on the stage there still a lot more opportunities for that so no worries, but Miss Gaia won't be the performance area cos she's rising up too.

Hallefunckinluah!