Stuff for house…
1) new chandelier for dining room
2) TV/media console
3) Braided fikus for living room w/ a tree pot
4) Photo collage (eight 4x6, 6x4)
5) Runner rug for upstairs hall
6) Fake tree for bedroom
7) hanging lamp for bedroom
8) Rug for evie’s room
9) Fun wall décor for evie’s room
10) Side table and lamp for guest room
11) Outdoor furniture for porch
12) Gardening mibook for ideas (research)
13) Additional lamp for computer desk area
14) Laptop computer
12.28.2008
12.11.2008
Loving yourself takes guts!
I am doing my darnedest to stay strong and loving towards myself. This includes everything about me - E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!!!!
my body type, my hair, my individual energetic presence not matching up to what I "wish" my physical presentation would be. That really is the hardest one for me to come to terms with.
I have always been annoyed that my spirit is contained in this large frame of a body. Everything about my physical body is large or in access...
big big!! boobs, bones, head, hair, tummy, waist, wrists, face....
roundness abounds!
I am round.
If I slack on exercising I get rolls of fat under my chin and my upper arms go plump.
Now all of this just makes me sick! sick I tell you!!!!
yet, the loving part of me has taken on this challenge to see if it's possible to really love myself through this.
I have started to exercise again, but I believe in the power of conscious creation.
If I start in disgust about where my body is right now, I won't achieve my desired result.
The only thing I can do to help myself to love my body is to love it right now!
N-O-W!
I have conditioned my thoughts to tell me that I am "fat, huge, and "ugly".
No more!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was given this body for a reason. It is perfect in its hugeness and it is right for me.
In fact, I have often read that many empaths choose a large frame as "safety" from the influx of thought forms that they receive. According to Doreen Virtue, putting on weight is a safety mechanism for "Incarnated angels"....
That's me!
I love myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am doing my darnedest to stay strong and loving towards myself. This includes everything about me - E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!!!!
my body type, my hair, my individual energetic presence not matching up to what I "wish" my physical presentation would be. That really is the hardest one for me to come to terms with.
I have always been annoyed that my spirit is contained in this large frame of a body. Everything about my physical body is large or in access...
big big!! boobs, bones, head, hair, tummy, waist, wrists, face....
roundness abounds!
I am round.
If I slack on exercising I get rolls of fat under my chin and my upper arms go plump.
Now all of this just makes me sick! sick I tell you!!!!
yet, the loving part of me has taken on this challenge to see if it's possible to really love myself through this.
I have started to exercise again, but I believe in the power of conscious creation.
If I start in disgust about where my body is right now, I won't achieve my desired result.
The only thing I can do to help myself to love my body is to love it right now!
N-O-W!
I have conditioned my thoughts to tell me that I am "fat, huge, and "ugly".
No more!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was given this body for a reason. It is perfect in its hugeness and it is right for me.
In fact, I have often read that many empaths choose a large frame as "safety" from the influx of thought forms that they receive. According to Doreen Virtue, putting on weight is a safety mechanism for "Incarnated angels"....
That's me!
I love myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12.04.2008
Gattaca.
Today I felt a bias - an unintentional cruel division of sorts, but still a painful shock to my system. I need to be reboot myself right now so what I am attempting to do is to reclaim my own self worth as a human being and not fall short with limited thinking. I don't believe in what seems to be "acceptable" to them so I just delete that experience from me and let it fly off into a thousand pieces and fall into the hands of my angels who love to remind me that I am good enough as is. I don't need ANYONE from the outside to validate my worthiness nor do I feel lessened by their ignorance. They are allowed to create whatever is it they want to create just as I also have that right. So I am claiming my space, making it legitimate, feeding its growth, and won't lose site of my own dream.
Today I felt a bias - an unintentional cruel division of sorts, but still a painful shock to my system. I need to be reboot myself right now so what I am attempting to do is to reclaim my own self worth as a human being and not fall short with limited thinking. I don't believe in what seems to be "acceptable" to them so I just delete that experience from me and let it fly off into a thousand pieces and fall into the hands of my angels who love to remind me that I am good enough as is. I don't need ANYONE from the outside to validate my worthiness nor do I feel lessened by their ignorance. They are allowed to create whatever is it they want to create just as I also have that right. So I am claiming my space, making it legitimate, feeding its growth, and won't lose site of my own dream.
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