yr narcissistic tendencies are not a turn-off
it's what i hold dear about u -
this is because i can hold a space for it to exist
(thru non-judgment & compassion)
this is a good mindfulness practice for me
i have developed a heart capable of not aspiring to
crack yr nut cos its hard & shut down
that's not my goal here -
i just want to watch u, listen & take in
what u express
a dangerous charm perhaps, yet i am NOT moving towards u
for empathy - u have a handicap (i know this well)
i don't want to hand u full authority or influence u to stop what yr doing
i don't want to entertain illusions of a give-&-take
i know i am alone emotionally in this one
u can sour love & stomp on vulnerability
but this is why i adore u, duh!
my expectations are low while i'm being wildly entertained...