integrity is the watchword
the founding poppas held it -
wanting to make a difference
tobacco co.'s taken to task
'cos they did not contain it
laws passed in honor of healthy choice
this wall tumbled down
now, the economy, now ourselves...

voices cry out for examination of fairness
ordinary matters, like trees are in a pruning stage
cutting down to the core can get ugly
what about growth? following
nature's way reveals potentiality

the principle of integrity will grow
our financial system & ourselves back to life
we are cutting back for growth
watch & wait in amazement

no, the `ol boys club will not approve, so what?

a system born under personal choice w/o penalty is
sound and a good one - it's our key to
freedom
planting seeds in a soil that was designed to allow
potentiality is acting according to integrity
we're doing what our country was made to do

as americans, we should stand reverent in this role
as changelings, individually & collectively
the seeds we plant do have the ability to spread
i believe this, it's FINALLY time!!!

from the reader

disavowal is an unusual form of betrayal
from the outside it is impossible to tell if u r disowning someone or
simply exercising discretion, being considerate, avoiding embarrassments &
sources of irritation. But u, who r doing the disowning, u know what
u r doing. and disavowal pulls the underpinnings away from a
relationship just as surely as other more flamboyant types of betrayal

serendipity

i go in looking for my favorite body cream & i find
u
standing in the aisle, waiting for me to arrive
on neutral territory in front of the baby food
i
look over & there it is
us
our first encounter since the disaster
i
don't cry or feel numb
i ask if u need a basket...

my prescription for fun (what the doc ordered)

enjoy a good bottle of wine
(wine is just a game for grown-ups, not letting the fuss fool me)
create casual good conversation
imagine mysterious scenarios happening for complete strangers
respect everyone's journey
observe that being attractive does have its privileges
live like today is tomorrow, you know like being in Australia or something!
continue to make merry and experiment (always, always)

the glamorous stalking of a prey, to attempt to posses & control someone for just
awhile and then letting go of this dominance to allow
the power swing back & forth to each partner is my kind of entertainment
To be led on leash is fun for awhile, but it
definitely is not a lifestyle choice for ANYONE solid in their own skin

these kind of games cycle on themselves as if in a dance.
if the dynamic is static no growth can occur -
equality is not on the menu. maybe it can still be made though.
anything is possible, but most important is to see and experience the world as
a woman complete unto herself - not as anyone's muse, wife, lover, or mother, but just as

herself

(withdrawn into ur own body; it's own quiet rhythms, unbothered by any input from the mind, oblivious to the outside world....)

possession of a lover - why do we need to posses something we love?

loving yourself comes first before ego games

bahnhofstrasse

u appear as i am puking my guts out in the dark alleyway
wrapping yr arms around me ignited something in u
for the first time your heart wasn't hardly closed, she
opened and there was nothing to say...

so i talk to myself instead of you - incessant and constant

(i hide in hotel bathrooms and divulge secrets to the mirror)

once i wanted to be the greatest then came the rush of the flood melt me down into big

black armor just like Jericho i said let these walls coming tumblin' down i need yr

confidence baby anyone will tell you how hard it is to make and keep a friend when you

just can no longer pretend that ur gettin' what you need or ur giving out anything

for them to grow and feed on no subtle man came to my town beggin' for my hand

so much for runnin' when no one stays to wait who would take my word on anything these

days i've failed so many times saying i'm gonna change - lovekeeper


pls.let me out we're just orphans in a tide's wave's wake

(when i say fuck u i say it with luv)

...it was a dreadful tyranny, an obsession in her to know all he knew...